3rd Post Today!

3 posts today, I must be insane! Well, the husband is lost in a video game right now. He hardly ever plays but he wanted to tonight so being the nice wife I didn't mind. What else can I do besides stare mindlessly at the TV while he shoots up some things with his hand-held 'gun'? Scrap of course! Well, I could maybe clean, or do some laundry, but I didn't. He'll probably be playing this game all night. I will be all alone in bed. Actually, Jillian co-sleeps, so I won't be alone. I'll snuggle up with her, lol. So... point to my post... I made another page. This time I didn't use a kit! I know, shocking right? I used Shabby Princess Colorful Corners though, changed them to black. This is my little beaner when she was 2 months old. I look at these cute little pictures and her soft little face and I just can't believe it is her!! She looks so different to me! It's sad because I kind of don't really remember her looking like that! I remember this photo shoot, I remember lots of things, but I wish I could close my eyes and breath in these memories, feel them again, touch her newborn skin again..... I am happy that she is growing up, that all of the kids are growing up, I am. I am also very sad at the same time. My hubby keeps telling me that it's a good thing, a new chapter, blah blah. I try not to think about how sad it makes me because honestly it scares me. I mean, this is who I am, a mom of little ones, babies.... I loved being pregnant and giving birth and holding the baby and nursing the baby.... pretty soon all of that will be gone, over, never to be felt again, ever. Sad. *sniff*