Friday, July 03, 2009

Need to get this off my chest. Oh, and a FREEBIE!

Posted by JeanellePaige at 12:54 PM
So, we've been in our new place for a few weeks now. I love it! We moved from a house into an apartment which is smaller, but has 1 more room then we had before. So my oldest daughter doesn't have to share with her 2 little sisters. The school is only 2 blocks away. Stewarts is right down the road so the kids can walk and get ice-cream. Where we were living before, the road didn't even have sidewalks and everyone speeded on the road so I never wanted my son to ride his bike on the road. The house was all paid for, but now we have to pay rent. Some people might say it was a stupid decision to move from a free house to an apartment we have to pay rent on, but I just couldn't live next to my overbearing parents anymore. Nothing was ever good enough for them, and it never will be. I have been trying to gain their acceptance all my life but I will never get it. I hated cleaning the house because it was never good enough for them. Now I clean for ME and it feels great! It's so much easier to clean too since it is all one floor. The kids have been helping and it's all running so great. I still have to clean out the old house though and that is stressing me out to the MAX!! We need to rent a dumpster to get all of the crap out of there. 9 years of accumulated sh*t that just needs to GO! We have only taken the bare minimum to the new place. My husband's job shut down for a week and he isn't getting paid so I am worried about making rent, which means we can't afford a dumpster right now. I am hoping all my digi sales will help. Everything in my shoppe is on sale, EVERYTHING! LOL! Once the plant opens back up my husband will hopefully get some overtime. That will help. I just want to get the old place cleaned out and be done with it.

I have all my nic nacks and pictures hung and it's so nice here. There are kids in the neighborhood that my kids will get to know once school starts in September so they will finally be able to go to friends houses and have friends over here too. I am just so worried we won't be able to afford things here. I am not used to paying rent, and I have always relied on my parents to bail us out if we got behind on bills. Part of me feels bad that I moved because I feel I owe it to them for all they have bailed us out of. BUT, my therapist made a good point. She said,"Are you for sale?" I am not, and I need to be able to live my life and be an adult, which I was never allowed to do with my parents living next door telling me I am not good enough, don't do things well enough.... I have just had enough after 31 years!! My husband and I have had some marriage troubles but are doing ok now. I don't trust him, and I am still angry at him for what he has done to me. Time will make it better though. I just hope he stays faithful and willing to work on getting my trust back.
I know moving will be and is the best thing for my kids. That's the most important thing. they have more things to do now then they did at the old house. They are a lot happier in a cleaner house and a lot less overhwlemed since it is smaller. It will be hard to make ends meet, but it was a good decision.

OK, that's off my chest now. I could keep going on and on, but I think I'll just give you all the freebie now, lol.

There are 5 pastel, polkadotted felt flowers. Click the image to DL! Enjoy and I hope everyone has a great 4th of July!!

2 friends stopped by to say...:

Pattycakes on 7/04/2009 7:02 AM said...

Thank you for the pretty flowers....have a fun 4th of July!! :)

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for this Freebie. I want to let you know that I posted a link to your blog in Creative Busy Hands Scrapbook Freebies Search List, under the Elements or Papers post on Jul. 04, 2009. Thanks again.


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