Really, WTF IS normal? Well, I know it's not this. I know it's not having panic attacks all of the time, not feeling like you can't look into the future because there is none for you. I keep feeling that I am going to die. I am not sure of what, just I know I am going to die. It's all in my head, it is. Stupid brain. I feel like my mind is being tortured by my body and my brain. Tortured. I have been working on a new kit, but usually I can pull a kit out in a day, maybe 2. This time it's been over a week now. I feel alone. I have a house full of people (kids) and a hubby and I still feel alone! Crazy!!
So, I gave in and started a MySpace account trying to find some old friends. I was looking for my old best friend Tracy, but ironically came across an old boyfriend. My 'first' boyfriend if you get my drift. Man I was so young and stupid when I was with him, lol. He was a great guy, broke my heart, but hey, you move on, and get your heart broken again, lol. It's nice talking to him. I have periodically thought about him, wondered where he was, what he was doing. I'm glad he's doing well. I still haven't found the friend I was looking for. I guess if she wanted to find me it would be easy enough. Just type in my first name in google and my blog is #3. I wish my site was, but oh well, lol.
Well, it's nice out, so i am going to let the kids play outside. Once again, sorry for the Sunday Morning Paper Freebie. I am a horrible buisness woman, I just can't design lately. I hope soon, I hope.
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